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I've been a huge fan of Judas Priest in my adolescence. All my wildest feelings and emotions were accompanied by their music (~2001 ...?). I even got to be in their concert (2004 or 2005 can't remember) And in minutes of being sentimental I remember their music. Though metal music seems mostly irrelevant to me now, as the whole metal scene is full of wankers, posers and other general losers. But I still sometimes listen to some of my favorites. I now know that it was a beautiful phase in my life of being a teenage metalhead, I used to do some petty crazy stuff and also wear some crazy stuff. But hey, teenagers are most lucky they can do it and it's considered normal.

Has anyone worked with sculpey living doll brand polymer clay?
I have found it in one store and not sure to buy or not. Fimo puppen (doll fimo) was a big disappointment for that price. It's too somewhat waxy and gets too soft from the warmth and I overall hated it. Air dry Premier was another one I didn't like, It's cool that it's so lightweight and ultra white, but it's very hard to shape it and it's too slippery when wet.
So my two absolute favorites are Prosculpt (polymer) and Paperclay (air dry clay). But the thing with Prosculpt is that I have to buy it online, so I wonder if that living doll sculpey would be any close match.

How can an artistic block last for more than a year? No motivation, no inspiration...
Few things I've done in that year (or more) have been made through force. I can't feel those wonderful and best feelings only creation can bring. Only routine and depressive mood. Do I have to keep trying creating by force?

So, lets see where we are now.
2 days left of my holiday. so sad it flew so quick.
I have a dog now. It's a 9 month old German shepherd. And he's 30 kilos of pure love. So much trouble but it's worth it. At first I was so against at having a dog, but he won my heart.
I will be trying to make some photography portfolio, to be able to earn some money and hopefully earn my bread with it. I want it. It would bring more happiness in my life, primarily because there would be no routine I hate so much. I wouldn't have to bare the same people everyday, or do the same things again and again. Well, there would be some repetition, but not the way it is now. I'll have to try hard to make it happen, but I believe I can, only it would take some time.
Originally I would like to have no job and make dolls just for the sake of it. But it's not how things work. And dreaming to earn from that is stupid. Not that my dolls are not good or pretty or someone would not like them. They are impractical and art is not something that sells. Photography sells, because people want to see themselves in pretty pictures they can't make. They can spend their money on that better than on some ephemeral "art".
Oh well, I believe I'm going to be good at it. I'm just a bit lazy